illusion

I nursed this thought
of love, yours and mine
had got this idea bought
day after day, across time

though you were far away
heart carried this illusion
you hold me and my sway
mind was in a state - delusion

and now you are back
holding your own fort here
you paint a picture black
and say it is nothing there

I loose the thread of hope
the little illusion I always had
myth is broken,  secret ope
as if hammered by brad

how do I sew this illusion again
how I tell self, you may love again
what I see is a bad dream again
how do i believe in illusion again