I met your soul

I thought, love is foreign
and then I met your soul
conveying without words
love is the my sole goal

there are no doors here
yet heart welcomes you
its deaf to all noise, but
hears whispers from you

had imagined an image
of how love should be
you are so different to it
telling how love is to be

heart build many barriers
your being shattered all
I never knew what love is
now just need your call

transparent walls of heart
have your image all over it
my pulse is my sole bead
I chant your name bit by bit




Ah the distance from love
is what is killing me now
come beloved hold me
take me in embrace now

my arms are open for long
and you test my patience
how long love do I wait
life is here for an instance

Love Sonnet

Love, I look at your image
and imagine how someone
created something so perfect
and unique like no one

Love, you have pure heart
which carries with itself
a pilgrim soul, unblemished
purifying all apart from yourself

Love, I hold your small hand
and feel softness of universe
with firmness of belief, assurance
carefree, this life I can traverse

Love, I see in your light eyes
and see depths of life, seas
how else do I get the treasure
except by diving into the seas

Love, I feel your breath close
carried from far by this air
it has your essence, fragrance
giving me life of my share

Love, I long for your being
hoping life knocks my door
as a wandered I seek you
in your city searching each door

longing

What use is this sordid life
when you are not around
these breaths are a burden
if your feet bless other ground

I lived in times you lived
and yet you remain elusive
I longed for you, your hair,
color and radiance you give

Yet, my longing has no end
for you remain far and distant
I cannot bow to your land
I never been there an instant

I need to kneel, kiss earth
that held you for so long
be in the same place where
your breaths make a gong

how do I stay away from
the fragrant air of your town
which houses your essence
which gives you fairy crown

Beloved you are being unkind
by not looking back at me
I have held you in heart forever
and you are indifferent to me

How much else do I love you
this longing seems to be endless
I loved you with all Love I had
and this longing left me lifeless

why you count my years to me
without you there was no life
I lived moments with you around
rest was a body breathing, no life

see you ever again

Leaves are beginning to wither again,
in between we had this long wait
there came Diwali, Christmas and eid
yet I did not see you ever again

I waited, every day, every occasion
and yet you did not show up ever
my desire of you kept growing
yet I did not see you ever again

There was season of Spring, colors
and that remained colorless this year
heart had buds of love waiting bloom
yet I did not see you ever again

This monsoon was weird alone
my eyes, cheeks wet in every rain
I longed for you, I prayed for you
yet I did not see you ever again

Why did we have to meet once
if we had to separate forever again
my patience for your face is infinite
yet I did not see you ever again

Beloved, Diwali, Christmas are close
and its time for all to share the floor
come lets rekindle the love again
yet I did not see you ever again

traveller

I leave you to travel far and wide
but then at end of each long day
I crave for your long locks to hide
your essence in every place i stay

holding onto you deep in my heart
I walk on to a destination unknown
some average, some designed art
civilization, some afloat, some drown

with each step my craving grows
and I want to return to your fold
where each morning your face shows
nested, cuddling as love birds told

my head wants to rest on your lap
holding you tight with my little hand
but you know this distance, this gap
why across the seas do we stand

Me and you are all mere travelers
transiting around the sun each year
yet you see me as a lone traveler
who will never stay with you here

I am not a traveler, yet I travel
for me your are the destination
why then I seek places to unravel
when you are soul, lord's creation

forget you

Beloved, I will forget you
once I forget how to live
how to die and live again
or to die over and over
and yet retain your breathe
how to give away soul
and still be alive here
how to look at elements
and see a picture of you

Beloved, I will forget you
once I forget this sun
the moon and the stars
this lovely autumn breeze
these crumpled leaves
this wait for white winters
hues and fragrance of spring
the rays one summer sun
and yet I may not forget you

Beloved I will forget you
but then there is nothing
alive in me that's not you
from the beats to heart
from the blood to viends
and right from this little
mind to that endless soul
there is nothing that is mine
except my love for you

Beloved I will forget you
may be not in this life
or in many there after
but one day when I will
in many lives hereafter
I would have found something
which is beyond all known joys
that you bring to my heart
may be, I will never forget you

vine of memories

I lived for the moments of time
you and had spent together
and now your memories live
as vines wrapping around me
with thorns piecing deep in me
taking roots inside my heart
for them to stay there forever
and let me carry these wounds
always with me where i go
bleeding my heart drip by drip
with a weird pain here in me
like an half pierced arrow
of your, your eyes and love
that is stuck there as a token
from you, which I can not
take out as i would loose
only token I got from you

These vines grow big tight
strangulating my self, being
and yet I cannot hug them
for these are just memories
and a body needs elements
to hold onto, to live to survive
you, who is from these elements
makes these elements special
for they may have been else
but they never had this virtue
that they carry on being you
and thats why you know
my love for you never ends
it transcends being of elements
and deep into the pilgrim soul
that lives in you with innocence
better than that of any child

intoxicating wine

with her I tasted an intoxicating wine
a wine that was from her eyes into me
one made from her innocent face, eyes
now no other wine can be intoxicating
no other wine can match her eyes
and then she decides to stay away
and keep me wanting for her more
O beloved, I never told you this
but there is no cure for me now
am drunk with that heavenly nectar
that flows through you onto me
and brings with it glory of life
holding with it light from your face
to brighten darkness of my heart
and yet you stay far, depriving me
of both life and my wine to forget it

O Love, this world has forgetten
then to make a better glass of nectar
how do I drink from any other cup
when cup you brought had your color
where else can a cup have that color
where else can a cup have that grace
hold it and you behold me without touch
drop it and you kill me without sword
come and give me your embrace again
let me be drunk forever in your arms
and have the wine of yours in viens
running inside me instead of blood
and then even if the priests, pundits
throw me out of temples or churches
I would have no regrets for the same
for I would have got my beloved, god

clouds are dark

the clouds are dark again today
and the rains are ready for me
ah this is just like that gloomy day
when I can cry and rain covers me

She met me and then she left
holding her head high in pride
her walk had mesmerizing deft
making distance within us wide

ah, my heart it knows no way
but to love her, for all she is
heart! what more do you say
nothing but just that all she is

eyes followed her to the corner
and they see there's no reaction
why my tears fall for a foreigner
why do they now expect an action

Leave my eyes! leave that place
where she turned away from you
she is gone along with her grace
my heart sinks, it caught its flu

there is no medication, no cure
for the only medication is time
or it needs glimpse of you sure
or a gong from your wind chime

Ah! chime is still there on door
the one you brought long ago
it never plays nor you open door
I saw that close long long ago

walk back in time just once again
me to hold and never leave again
those memories, my thoughts train
they will freeze in time yet again

Mirrors dont lie

The oars are not moving
yet the mast flies high
on the boat of my body
my soul remains high
inundated with thoughts
of one I always adore
and my heart beats on
as my ship drifts ashore

I look inside each night
and see you there yet
I do not get to hold you
Wise say Mirrors don't lie
and yet to me they do
whenever I look in them
I see just you, no me
even when you are far

I thought, I had one life
but how wrong, have been
I live each night in dreams
die each day without you
how many more deaths
do i need to entail here
just to get to hold you
here in person, in this life

Love, memories are sweet
but I cannot just hug them
and cry for this pain, agony
on their shoulders again
I need you to move across
and call me from there
hold me with your hands
and hug me again closer

your presence

People see the sky above
I see it beneth your feets
and clouds bow down
when you decide to walk
trampling them under feet

your moment is celestial
even moon learns to walk
from the way you walk
and your dance is divine as
stars twinkle on its rhythm

you speak -flowers bloom
buds show their inner self
and that smile is whole
like a flower with all self
complete, unparalleled

your presence is a glow
that illuminates my world
self sustained like the sun
you light the dark in me
showing love to my heart

love and warmth

I walk with a kind heart(ed)
where there was no hatred
in spite of agony experienced
all it has - love and warmth

my emotions are a wilderness
her presence meandering river
yet I seek her in each gust of air
smell in every breath in here

While I carry with me my dark
she brings along her innocence
yet I seek her glorious presence
her embrace, her love and warmth

I remember her soul, her heart
and forget my own being here
what purpose is my being now
as soul resides somewhere else

My Love, she holds the heart
which houses my soul, life
it does not like any other, for
there it has - love and warmth

Am Nobody

I am nobody,
yet you call me a lover
my love exists in you
and without you
am not a lover
am a nobody

I am waiting
yet you call me impatient
my patience resides in you
and without you
am impatient
yet am waiting

I am here
yet you call me a traveller
my travels are in search of you
and without you
there is nowhere to go
am just here

I am just minerals
yet you call me alive
my live revolves around you
and without you
am not alive
Am just minerals

Love Sonnet

Love, we reached shores
saw waves reaching out
and decided to walk on
we stayed in each other
beyond countries we live in
we, separated by this land
united by the sky above

my hand searches for yours
to hold and walk the steps
that we walked together
my eyes trace those footsteps
which are now filled with water
ingrained in the sand there
the steps we took together

This sun sets again today
like it does on each of days
and yet it again hides ships
that are at the horizon now
for them to be never seen
wrecking them forever then
like it did to our hearts then

My searching eyes still wander
towards this horizon hoping
to see you rise from the wreck
from across the horizon back
or up from depths of the sea
and hold me once again
tracing those footsteps back

haven't seen you smile

Its raining and am drenched
but I haven't feel rain for ages
with loud cloud's thunder
I shriek and cry deep within
with every raindrop falling
my eyes let a drop roll down
you may see me smiling now
but I haven't smiled for ages
for I have not seen you smile
haven't seen you smile for ages

I seem free to move around
but am tied in chains for ages
I am not reluctant to come
but am stopped at every step
I look up to stars and moon
only for find clouds around
This night is dark and long
but the dark in me is endless
for I haven't seen my heart
haven't seen you smile for ages

New sun will rise, it will set
yet this dark will stay forever
breath needs to feel you once
but heart may not beat forever
my sun, my love is far away, yet
this horizon does not change 
my love you are reluctant lover
this distance will remain forever
my eyes are wandering for you
as haven't seen you smile for ages

my devotion

Why do you blame me
for not paying any obedience
why do you blame me
for not praying every day
How do you know
that I do not pray each moment
How do you know
that my lord is not happy with me
Why do you blame me
for just calling out love's name

I see that face each moment
and each glimpse in my eyes is a bead
with that I chant love's name
and that's my devotion above all chants
I have my own path
to my salvation, to my own god
you pray to be happy
and my happiness is with my love
you pray to attain heaven
when my heaven is with beloved
my beloved is my medium
and chanting love's name my devotion

i never stop you from praying
then why do you question my ways
let me make up with love
let me tread my own path to my god

language of heart

Who cares about words now
the hearts talk with each other
there are no words, no language
they speak in own sweet ways
holding on to each other always
even when do not see each other
each moment of time, each place
they are connected invisibly, always
through a thread that ties them
and it stretches beyond borders
but one pull and wounds bleed
heart is torn with just one pull

O love, come to me and heal
this bleeding red heart of mine
from my heart to your heart
across cities and many seas
where any word i say is heard
any word you say understood
irrespective of language used
cause though mine and yours
tongues are so different here
heart has language of its own
that our bodies do not care
only our souls understands

Earth's Lovers

The Earth goes through separation
each day with dawn and dusk
living through the joy and sorrow
to see sun, at night removing husk

but up in sky there's different world
there is no night for it to ever live
the sun is a companion always
its radiant light it always does give

At times it has some dark clouds
bursting water to pour somewhere
and we are waiting for the nectar
to drop here, to drop right here

As a drop touches this thirsty earth
a fragrance rises up from its breast
its pride, this sand all battered down
rain beats down thumping earths chest

O Lord, what lovers this earth has
one hides in day other sets at night
another beats down for a short while
when they meet, a rainbow, lovely sight

Sonnet of Love

I have loved you even before knowing you
in this life and many before this
I loved you for ever without seeing you
my memory did not have your face
but its desire of of you had no end
I searched for your being each moment
without ever knowing you
and yet I knew that I loved you

The instant we met first
I never realized it was you I love
and when you are far
I search in myself to remember you
and searching again for your eyes
trying to recollect your glance
between those little conversations
not knowing then that I loved you

May be i do not love you
but that may never be true
for there is only one love, you
and yet I do not hold you in arms
I let you go, encourage you to have wings
to a life you would love and cherish
and yet I am sad that you are away
love, i know I just love you

I have searched for you across
and tried to find resemblance
when I know there is no one like you
and yet I look up-to the moon
each night amongst the stars
hoping it had likeliness to your face
only to be disappointed it paled
far behind your glow

I know I had touched you
and since then that touch stays
in life where it was that day
my life has stopped since then
even though i seem alive
and breathing even now
but my life began and ended
at that very moment of time.

My heart has desire

My heart has desire
but then it lost love
when it found love
it was deep in heart
devoid of any wants
without any desire
of wanting you,
of being with you

My feelings glide
on carpet on moss
with you around
there are no walls
just long roads
to transcend far
holding your hand
once and forever

My nights pass
sleepless in eyes
for i cannot sleep
when you are awake
wide in my dreams
each time I close eyes
and yet I shy away
from moon and stars

My days are lonely
without you here
but am accompanied
by an image of yours
deep in my heart
and my soul traces
your foot steps always
trailing you, your shadow

Sea is rough

This Sea is rough for days
wave after wave is lashing
the sand is slipping out faster
than grains from hour glass
with ground under slipping
these are shaky grounds
that I stand on here now
on far shore away from you

Wind gushes through walls
tearing all that is to support
one breath after another
going through feeble lungs
as I grasp for my breath
of that little bit of air I need
with some fragrance of yours
am disappointed day after day

the sky is clouded for days
there is no light to see now
stars and moons are hidden
behind the white veiled clouds
there is darkness around
and deep in my heart here
my light, your eyes are away
and am destined for this dark

this heart sinks each day
when it does not find you
and your face every morning
for there is nothing better
than you for my own being
my soul that lives in you
craves for togetherness
of two bodies, one soul

boundaries

i catch a flight once in a while
and every time I look out
there are no boundaries there
there is either land or sea
an infinite expanse for us
waiting with open arms
but at the moment we land
we see boundaries here
people divided by land
but united by air and water

what if man had choice
even this air would be split
how do you get to breathe
when you are in my air
how did my air infringe
into the area of your air
like we have split rivers
seas, oceans and water
if only we could split
we would have marked
spaces even on sun

A man divides and then
heart unites against all odds
love transcends all boundaries
all languages spoken by man
for Love has its own language
unheard by many in this world
but heard only by those in love
you and I love, we are different
having different languages
different ways to our gods
but still we can have same love

Its sad that we have to be
always on these very pieces
where boundaries are visible
and we cannot walk past
its sad that we cannot be
living up on the clouds
where no one can yet see
any divisions on this land
any divisions on this sea
one wave after another
lashing my heart, love

myself without you

How to separate body from soul
How to separate waves from sea
these are one till they live, like wise
How to imagine myself without you

You are the universe that I know
that ever existed here for me ever
me being on this earth in this world
is dependent on your being here

I love your bright eyes and smile
just like a bud moves to bloom
all of it then has colors, fragrance
so does your smile its all that exists

your arms, way they held me once
no one ever can hold me like that
beloved, why then you stay so far
why then you deny love that exists

Today we are separated and far
across the vast expanse of ocean
lets make this long journey across
to find ourselves in each other

Love, Do not hurt yourself for me
you hurt me when you hurt yourself
don't hurt me for any wounds I have
will hit you, for you are always in heart

my soul is with your being always
and in me is nothing that can live
without you, I neither live or die
i can only die because of love

more of you

Trees are shedding their old leaves
for a new spring, to be green again
my life is shedding its old weights 
for more of you to keep living

My eyes are never tired of you
they look at your face for days
without bating eyelids even once
holding you in these two eyes

I cherish the moments when you
put your arms around my neck
and held me close to yourself
to let me wrap my arms on you

That moment is all that ever is
it makes me live even today
and I wait for your soft arms
to come, wrap around me again

I still feel that touch of yours on me
my chin resting on your shoulders
reassured that you are with me
in all ups and downs of life

I know you more than myself
I can detail your eyes, your face
better than my own little hand
I have your picture in me always

spring again

each day am away from you
I feel as if am torn to pieces
yet i pick my self each dawn
looking at sun thinking of you
bringing light to my lonely heart

Love, we lost this day and
then we lost this dusk too
it had all the colors to see
but none to feel without you
my hand was without yours

The night has fallen again
and with it come its blues
dark, its dark with no moon
yet I search for you again now
amidst the stars of universe

I am searching for your eyes
for their light to brighten path
and me to hold on to that love
that lives in your soul and heart
even when you are not with me

Who cares love thereafter then
my soul searches for your arms
for your love to save us from life
and to carry me across this life
unscathed in your lovely heart

Love you know what, I still do
hold you in my arms each night
in every dream of mine that i see
cause you guide me in dreams
and am lost in life, without you

Who says you cause this pain
you gave me the best moments
of life I have ever lived on earth
and now that you are far away
I still cannot let you go away

hold me beloved in your arms
and let me loose myself there
this bare autumn will end soon
there will be spring post winters
am waiting for that spring again

Bag of dreams

I carry with me, bag of dreams
sewed together bursting to be free
held by a small cord, tied in knot
with my hand holding one end
pulling cord slowly to unloose
and let the dreams come to life
that let me live this life of dreams
begining at dawn ending in twilight
in between those eyes and light
there is life with you, your love
and if this was the only life i had
I would live it before the end
fullest in your lovely light of day
under your sparkling pair of eyes
in shade of your hairs cool, calm
with my hands running in tresses
and your hand caressing my arm
waiting to be wound around neck
and then that tight hug of yours
holding me in that instant of time
when everything should have stopped
this time, earth, wind and my breath
but then my grip loosened there
and time moved and so did we
waiting for another dream to come
between another dawn and twilight
holding each others hand in hand
and getting back in that embrace
all over again, once again to live
to live and to love you forever

heart is poor

Love, why you stay away
my body does not sway
patience is running out
as each day I peep out
of these doors and windows
only to see empty meadows
with no passing no sight
there is only dark no light

beloved, my heart is poor
and it waits for its doer
only you have treasures
for its riches and pleasures
don't hide your lovely face
in this lonely dark place
only it is has a radiant light
for us to see this sight

Lily I have held you close
akin to solitary red rose
emitting color, fragrance
correcting hearts imbalance
in this lonely heart of mine
beyond the cycles of time
with you there is no thorn
love's reborn, love is reborn

beloved hold me close
love, hand me my dose
this illness of mine needs
and only your heart heeds
O world why do you flock
and these tongues do talk
tell them I know my beloved
I know beloved, I know beloved

a conversation

"Why do you stay away?", I asked
"because I am not you", she said
"aren't we bound to be different?", I asked
"yes, but we have no similarity", she said
"won't life be boring like that?" I asked
"no, then we can do similar things" she said
"but can't we can do new things?" I asked
"yes, but we may not like them", she said
"without even trying out?", I asked
"well it will be bad to leave midway" she said
"why will we leave midway?, I asked
"well am not sure", she said
"can you hold my hand?", I asked
"you don't know my past", she said
"I never asked about past, did I", I asked
"yes, but the past is important", she said
"Its about future, cant we forget past?", I asked
"well I have a lot of dark there" she said
"I see light of your heart, why worry?", I asked
"there are wounds and scars on me", she said
"these are my pain, why do you seethe?" I asked
"you just do not understand", she said
"I know your heart, why need anything else", I asked
"you deserve better than this", she said
"why this? nothing is beautiful than your heart" I asked
"Ah!!" she sighed, "understand please", she said
"what is needed to understand your heart?", i asked
she cried, "my scars would not go", she said
"then can you help me with my pain?" I asked
then she just hugged me and did not say anything

wounded heart

Carrying a wounded heart
I have traveled so far
searching for your being
and carrying me with you
there is dark inside my chest
in spite of cracks and wounds
sun, moon's light does not enter
I need your light to see
and go through the cracks
deep in my wounds
and lighten by world

my hands,flesh all else
may not remember the feel
but how can my heart forget
for no one else that has
gift of life that you bring
hidden in your smile and
there is tremendous lava
inside me waiting to explode
and it waits there simmering
just to see you again

This void I live in today
without you, your presence
is like an old fort abandoned
where no one has lived
for ages that have gone
doors have crumpled
windows gone long ago
there are a few dried leaves
along with dirt from
those footprints left
in an old old bygone era

Love, your suffering
is mine, now, forever
and the joys I have in life
are only due to your being
in life I cannot forget you
and when you hear otherwise
do not believe else or me
I cannot think of an existence
devoid of your thoughts
and yet be alive in this world
now or tomorrow or thereafter

This dark that I have in me
this pain of wounds that I carry
are growing with time without
your existence here with me
these waves that wash up
to me one after another
carry fragrance from  river
that flows in your land
and yet they do not carry
my message back to you

love, for me you are with me
as if no one else exits here
and even in your absence
I see you in all mirrors
so i stopped looking
at myself in the mirror
and went to the water
to see my face there
and will I see there is
your face in each ripple
that comes in that water

I do not look for me anymore
I just search your presence
tracing your lovely fragrance
back across the seas and lands
and yet you are elusive
your land seems far, very far
across the desert and rivers
and yet my heart feels you
deep within its existence
and your void as a wound
that needs you to heal

illusion

I nursed this thought
of love, yours and mine
had got this idea bought
day after day, across time

though you were far away
heart carried this illusion
you hold me and my sway
mind was in a state - delusion

and now you are back
holding your own fort here
you paint a picture black
and say it is nothing there

I loose the thread of hope
the little illusion I always had
myth is broken,  secret ope
as if hammered by brad

how do I sew this illusion again
how I tell self, you may love again
what I see is a bad dream again
how do i believe in illusion again

journey

This earth,
that we tread
you and I
on a journey
across  lands
and seas
with hope
that you hold
my hand
even when
am alone, my
hope holds
you in heart
always

this earth
though big is
not big enough
to keep our
hearts from
being together
you and I speak
different languages
and you and I
may not speak
yet these hearts
know a hundred
ways to converse

Love
each journey
I make now
away from you
is still with you
in me my heart
my heart converses
with yours
even when its
miles away
starring at you
across the horizon
hoping to catch
a glimpse

love, do not 
hurt yourself
for this distance
for you hurt me
do not hurt me
for my soul
resides in you
and this house
that you have
is better than
any in this
universe

Beloved,
this journey
of our hearts
is meaningless
without togetherness
and yet across
this trembling
moments of time
we are separated
by land and seas

Love,
hold me when
I start a journey
not to travel
away from you
for your being
is bliss
for my being

Love, come
make a journey
from you to me
straight from
heart to heart
for us to live
on this earth
now and
forever

A step in
this journey
without you
is painful
come hold
my hands
so that we cross
all hurdles
looking at
each other
in the eyes

mirror

I am here for you
to do what you need
and act as yourself
to please me when
you are not here
and yet you think
am different
am another being
when every thing I hold
is inside you
for its your heart
that carries my soul

love, why do you cry
why do you hold
burden of pain, sorrow
come here in my chest
make a grave yard
where your sorrows rest
come let the tears
fall one last time
on my shoulders
never to fall again

look into my eyes
and you do not need
another mirror
for my face and eyes
are a reflection
of you and your being
they are angry
when you are angry
they are sad
when you are sad
and they are happy
when you happy
but one thing is
they are always
in love with you
always - infinite.