shifting sand

I have not known
yet I have lived this way
just to know you
and love you like no one

in this place where
you have lived forever
and in every place
I have searched for you

in these footprints
of shifting sand and time
i seek your feet
before I kneel to kiss

I love this air here
only because it touched
your loveliness once
before it did reach me

I love this sky
this moon and these stars
because they see you
and bring your well being to me

I have no other wish
except to be in life with you
now, here and thereafter
till each breath is lived to fullest

Love, you are the one
who is like no one I have known
in this expanse now
and beyond times that come

I love you because
there is nothing more beautiful
than the soul in you
reflected through those eyes

I love you because
no one else has the depth
that pierces me deep
than the twinkle of your eyes

Love, do not go far
for if i am not able to walk
or swim towards you
I will wait endless at the horizon

I will be there for you
on the shore of the seas you leave
from dusk to dawn
waiting for my sun to rise again

what did we gain?

Beloved what do you weigh, and why?
how much did we loose in all this
how much did we gain by being far
how much life and how mush of death

Love, We had not lost anything
when you and I had together then
but we did gain life from moments
and our share of joy and happiness

We had gained life in every minute
every second of togetherness
irrespective of who world brought
or what this life made us go though

Love, what did we gain like this
by being far, except multiple deaths
that came by being away from you
and a lost hope, which made us live

We lost thread from heart to heart
and the view of distant shore where
we saw each other each dusk and dawn
only to wait for another day dying

Why then my love, why, why
why do you weigh and for what
when we only lost by being far
and lived when we were together

stitched together

We are stitched together
by the threads of this night
this expanse of night sky
which stretches all the way
from my city to your home
in-spite of rivers it crosses
limitless oceans and land
across the span of greens
specks of dust of deserts
We are still stitched as one
when you still hold my soul
with you and I long for
that tenderness of yours
when you arms go round
and embrace me in you
as one who never was
separated from your being
We are stitched together
through that invisible thread
that joins our two hearts
making them beat as one
with all steps in tandem
across the two horizons
that you and I see now
in our respective cities
hoping to meet one again
when your hands touch me
hold me never to let go

light and dark

A dark moonless night
lighted with little lamps
with flame dark corners
but there is still a place
I myself cannot reach
to place a lamp there
nor to burn what exists
except burning myself

There is a small corner
deep somewhere in
depths of my lonely
heart that is still dark
and only your touch
can reach those corners
which have remained
for ages in that dark

Love, come and heal
the dark that has stayed
in me for these ages
longing for your light
come and let me drift
into the dark in you
that your heart carries
and lets share its weight

break of dawn

I wanted to be in your shadow
you moved to let the sun blind me
waiting for your presence from
first ray of morning to dusk
I remained there in the sun
now its dark, with no sun
its dark, there is no moon
and even if you come now,
I would not be able to see
you or your shadow I craved
I would not be in your shadow
for in dark there is you and me
there are no shadows here
I hope to wait and see you
again with the morning light
but am afraid, like each day
you will again decide to leave
my dreams at break of dawn

Waves

Waves of ocean are quiet today
perhaps they hear roaring waves
deep in my heart, in our hearts
bashing the walls, going back
to come, bash again and again
with bursts of emotions here
that my love, our love carries
and yet we are seperated
from our hearts, in denial
over this uproar that heaves
in us, in our hearts together
but still we decide to be
facing this uproar separately
when I know, we both know
that only way this will calm
is for you and I to be together
without any walls artificial
built between our hearts
so that a wave from mine
can travel up to yours
and a wave from yours
can come and rest in mine
 

A star has risen

A star has risen
from depths of heart
with dreams of love
a life makes a start

holding my heart near
through invisible thread
close and yet tender
with those little hands

this night was dark
with no moon or stars
and then you arise
in my heart and soul

bringing hope and
glimpse of life, light
brightening the dark
that came with night

without you here
had never realized
was not afraid to die
but only to live on

this life is not cruel
but this emptyness
without you is a killer
bleeding each moment

now that you are here
a star in my dark night
has risen yet again
A star has risen

A star has risen
deep in my heart
shining bright as ever
in midst of its dark

eternal spring

I have seen your being
which you deny
There are times when
you just decide to breathe
and the air around
becomes fragrant
Time just stops to feel
and the wind carries your
being all towards me
yet you deny your being

I am still here in your alley
for nowhere else I can
find that breeze
that has touched you
and comes towards me
bringing with it
a new spring
that has alluded me
all these years
in my journeys
devoid of you
at times in stars of north
at others in starts of south

All that I had in my journey's
were season of barren trees
where all the leaves had
already withered and
trees waited for a cold
lonely winter
and by the time winter
was to get over
I would have travelled yet again
far where the spring
was still far far away

I saw the sakura once
and it was a big surprise
as it was still autumn there
and then I realized
cherry blossom
came because of you
as you brought the breeze
and color to that garden
making it alive yet again
in that autumn

Beloved why then you
stay away and let
these gardens wither
these flowers wait
and my heart suffer
Come for now its time
for you to save this garden
else the world would say
there is no garden,
just specs of sand
scattered here and there

Beloved, why you deny
your existance to yourself
show me your eyes
and do not close them
I need to be deep
in that ocean there
forever, to live
and then who cares
if there is a heaven
cause for me this spring
will never end

Beloved, come here
and call me in you
in those arms of yours
holding me with
your tenderness
by your hands
that held me once
to give me a glimpse
of that eternal spring
only to let me go
into another autumn
into another winter

October Bloom

Its October yet again
as leaves change color
then they start to wither
but its in this lovely season
of lovely colored autumn
when each leaf of tree
turns itself into a flower
blooming with varied hues
before letting go its tree
like a flower withers
for the twig to be barren
like a leafless winter tree
to welcome new leaves
for a new colored spring
with bloom to arrive
and color our lives again

Its October yet again
as Sun decides to restrain
its glare on this earth
to let each leaf bloom
into petals with hues
and its only in autumn
when full tree smiles
with its whole being
unhindered, pristine
laughter, that happens
just once every year
and then it waits
for the little smiles
for a spring to arrive
have some new buds
and let them bloom

Spring is still bit far
so are the little smiles
of blooms and colors
but we have the trees
right now here with us
blooming as never before.

Why I love

Dont ask me why I love you
I don't have words to say
If you ask me how I love you
I can show love in infinite way

There is no reason to love
just the craving of my soul
there are a hundred ways
but all reach you, my goal

why should I not love you
when all that I posses is you
why should I seek someone
when soul just craves for you

Each night when stars come
I see them merely flickering
then in dark night I seek you
I see the world is glittering

Night is dark even with moon
hence I seek your two eyes
for they light my path bright
giving hope to future that lies

I  seek you through this night
let the dark merge with dawn
new day breaks and I still seek
your eyes, to heal heart torn

My beloved my love lives
from one life to another life
dying each night without you
seeking you again in sun's life

roots in earth

Why do I not love you
Why do I not long for you
This Earth with no expectation
lets a rose, a Lilly, take roots
holds the bud and lets it bloom
then when your love has
its roots deep in my heart
should stop love from bloom?

I cannot stop myself
from caring for this
deep root love of yours
which is entrenched in heart
Its my hearts nature
to hold roots, water them
and let them nourish
buds they support, to bloom

These roots are not just
flowers, colors or fragrance
they have thorns with them
which carry flower's fragrance
and it pierces through me
whenever I try to hold
the flower close to me
and soak in its fragrance

beloved, my love is no different
it tries to hold you close
without touching your tenderness
that is made for my heart
and takes care of my soul
which resides in yours
and still you ask, why do I love
why do I still long for you

without you

Who am I, without you
maybe just a wanderer
traveler who is searching
for its own soul's bearer
like a thirsty bird in desert
looking for that little oasis
one who has wings to fly
but own hurdles it faces


Roaming aimlessly in place
that had slightest resemblance
to you and your lovely face,
or had your fragrance, essence
I long for the shade of yours
for me to be hidden behind
from the glare of this world
in a heart, loving and kind


Yet, love, you just deny
 you posses my little soul
and tell me again and again
to focus on my life's goal
How do I find another goal
when purpose is known
and yet life eludes it always
heart bleeds, pierced, torn


I traveled and searched globe

to find your resemblance
but no one ever had a heart
just a long void, your absence
Love, I continue to seek you
and yet you remain elusive
holding my soul and denying
labeling my craving allusive

Twilight

How I wish this twilight
would hold here forever
with sun not starring bright
having all the varied hues
that flickering dim light
that lets you see horizon
holding back dark night
for as long as possible

How I wish this sky
will always have colors
where varied birds fly
to their homes nests
to give it another try
for little ones to get wings
reach in expanse, fly
beyond the visible horizon

How I wish this sea
always reflects these hues
with little glimmer to see
the distant boats arrival
visible in horizon as wee
and growing as it nears
to be with family for tea
and enjoy feel of home

How  I wish this earth
is always cool like this
waiting for night's birth
holding to precious little
moments for they are worth
any price more than gold
to pay there is no dearth
but the time never holds

How I wish this time
would stop here now
let me soak music, chime
in a moment for self
taking it is no crime
when a light wind blows
but does not stop for dime
but let me try and hold time

my embrace

I loved your small hands
wrapped around my neck
and holding me tightly
letting me embrace you

My beloved that hold
lives in me fresh as ever
and without you here now
I long for it again and again

and in spite of my love
I let you go, hold another
for I cannot reason love
nor the feeling of love

Yet I know this my love
that if someone holds you
you will realize, what feeling
you had with my embrace

No one else can have
arms that can replace
no hands can touch you
the way I have held you

Then and only then beloved
you will realize my feelings
that were in that embrace
when I last met you love

Love, that's when I will have
conveyed my love to you
without action, without words,
and yet in most lasting way

To hold you in my arms
wrap tight in my embrace
with you holding me again
with those little hands

your essence

Having traveled far
looking for my soul
I have breathed air
from various places
which filled my lungs
without discrimination
helping me survive

Sometimes this air
was hot and humid
at times it was dry
sometimes cold, heavy
while at others it had
a moist tinge to it
splashing droplets

but in each place
I have been seeking
intoxicating fragrance
of yours that lives
always in my heart
and stays there
always with you

I live this life fully
not because of air
nor because of place
but because of you
your essence in me
that remains in me
and my soul in you

Separation

After a short day, with your light
I have been through a long night
which seems endless and forever
i sit with heart which has to suffer
through this dark night all alone
waiting for sun, your eyes to atone
this dark night is suffering a lot now
and moon refuses to take a bow
these stars wait endless to retire
when our hearts are joined by wire
to speak to each other all over
rekindle talks in your lights cover
I still am paying a very heavy price
for seeing into your eyes, my vice
few hours of light has made me suffer
life since has been under dark cover
why did you meet for short while
only to stay away and put me in exile
Why is this night so much in love
with my loneliness over my love
Beloved, why do you stay away
what do you wait for in this stay
am losing breaths without a living
come be with my soul's being
I search for you in nights darkness
yet my dreams elude me in sleepness
I long for your eyes yet again
to see through those eyes again

Language Barrier

Love,
Why are you stuck on words
I can understand your smile
this laughter needs no words
I can feel your pain, anguish
tears conveyed without words
and see our little hearts talk
in a language without words

Love,
my feelings are like a stream
flowing rapidly towards you
no rocks can ever hold them
as they flow along towards you
reaching polished and smooth
with no sharp edges to harm you
or contours to even hurt you

Love,
do not insist on more of words 
cause I regret all I write here
my feelings are beyond words
and when I read all this I realize
not an iota is captured in words
why then you insist on this language
artificial, man made barrier of words

why do I love

why do I Still love you
when we know we leave
all that we have right here

My skin, my body, eyes
borrowed from elements
and will return to them

Only my soul survives
which is with your soul
and yet I crave for you

from youth to twilight
I desire more of this
and hope to delay night

Night which is inevitable
yet I want day to exist
from now and to forever

My love for you still knows
no bonds and I still love you
knowing we will separate here

In each day I see your face
flower smells your fragrance
and moon shows your image

Yet my soul resides in you
peacefully knowing all it can
it has its destination beyond life