You are far

Beloved, why you are far,
across numerous lands and
infinite seas and oceans where
my sight does not reach you

I stand at the shore looking
at this evening moon, hoping
that it will take my message
across this night sky to you

I seek out the stars in the sky
who all stand there, yet alone
yet far, hoping they will know
the pangs of separation I bear

I look to the stars and wait
for them to hear my words
and for them to transmit
these messages across to you

My Beloved, I don't know
if my night and your nights
are joined together in this dark
hopefully north stars reach you

but inspire of so many messages
I still sees these stars, unmoved
flickering the same way, with
no joy, no message from you

may be I should use the sun
before it goes into the earth
but then this sun, who does not
go beyond horizon, reach you

may be this air, this fragrant
air of winters may blow over
your land, your street your house
may be this can carry my message

but the air comes to me, whispers
"I am free, I don't chose direction
I roam not knowing my beloved
how do I end up finding yours."

The air too disappoints me now
and then I look into my heart
I see you there as you were back
when my eyes last saw you.

How do I not love

How do I not love you

how do I not love the 

sun and its hues at dawn

the sky with dark clouds

ready to pour on desert sand

How do I not love the

city where you and I met

like the distant horizon

where sun meets the sea

How do I not love this

sight of the ship entering

its harbour after long sail

across the entire globe

How do I not love this

breeze of spring bringing

your fragrance in each

whiff of air that blows

How do I not love these

drops of dew in the dark

reflecting the stars and

the sky and the full moon

How do I not love my 

heart, that beats in rhythm

with your steps, your breath

how do I not love you

just one light

As the bitterness of sun
and this earth, reaches
its peak, in this foggy
January, I remember you
and the fog and the mist
that clouded our hearts
to separate and live -
miles apart, separated
by a barren desert and
an endless ocean where
I stand and wait seeking
your reflection, your
signs in this air, trying
to find your fragrance
your little resemblance
to trace my footsteps
towards your street

I seek out and fight
with the sea to part
and leave a way for me
to walk on it to reach you
I battle the falling snow
to let the path be open
for me to reach out
to your city as soon
as the moon tells me
about your street and
your little windows
that remain open
for me, my presence
in your large expanse
of life, of your embrace

I look unto the stars
each day wondering
if they are destined to
be separated forever
like they appear today
or on any other night
with the moon light
or at times without
I look up to the moon
and ask what does it
gain by the little light
it brings on us in dark
when we are recollecting
memories of time we
had spend under its light
holding each other looking
out from our tiny window
up to it and the stars

Ah! Love, come see here
this life is passing by
and you tell me to wait
what use will be this wait
when you and I have to live
all this life, afar and separated
what use is this closeness
in the sky after our death
when only people on earth
will recollect, see us together
when we would be still
far apart as two distinct stars
each with its own light
how can we be two my love
when we are destined to have
just one life and let out
just one light after we are dead.

Distance

I remember you
in the distance
holding your soul
tightly in an embrace

Yet you were gracious
to open up to me once
and bare your soul
on that small chance

Ah, my love, how do I
say I loved your grace
but hated that little tear
that spoiled your dance

we walked down the street
holding other at every chance
even the streets were bright
we did not want to take a chance

yet, how far we were when
we got into an embrace
and you held me tightly
I didn't think of world once

Those infinite distances
between our souls in embrace
those unknown barriers
that made is part from embrace

yet, today when we are far
I feel closer than that embrace
yet, today when we cannot touch
I feel there isn't any distance

When I see

When I see the moon,
the dark night with stars
I look at the shadows
that the objects casts

I search in those shadows
for anything that bears
slight resemblance to you
resemblance to your mane


Do you know beloved
I have searched in dark
nights and bright moons
for your hair's presence

I have searched in stars
for what looks like you
only to find my heart
with its windows bleeding

In it I seek signs of desire
that were there due to you
yet all I see in the wounds
is sadness driven by absence

Absence of you from me
absence of your shadows
from the walls of this house
absence of you from yourself

Yellow Leaves

I saved moments to live
nurtured them as leaves
on magnification tree of time
each year, one at a time

All years had same branches
12 in all as I could count
and almost same number
of fresh green leaves

Some trees had a bonus
an additional leaf to live
an addition which I thought
was a bonus for all to live

Then as time approached
for each tree's moments
to live by each day
leaves started to turn yellow

Leaves would turn pale
on one each day at a time
and then the yellow leaf
would drop off from tree

I would lose all the leaf
day after day, crumpled
pale and yellow down
on the ground to vanish

This year, I see my new tree
it too has just 12 branches
and has that bonus leaf
hopefully surviving wither

I want to end atleast 1 year
with some leaves on the tree
still green still on and fresh
not as barren branch to be left.