Who am I

Who am I
when you are not with me
I was rich
but then you were with me
now am poor
without you, all riches leave me
I again seek you
even when my feet  betray me
I walk across cities
yet your glimpse is hidden from me
I swim across oceans
and the fishes hide you from me
where do I seek
for earth hides you, betrays with me

What do I become
that I may be able to find you
I you are the wind
I would be the dust that blows along 
If you are water
I would be the cloud waiting to rain
If you are the flower
I would be a thorn growing below
If you are the color
I would be a white canvas to paint
If you are the spring
I would be ground on which you grow

I have held breath for
spring to come to get your fragrance
I have soaked for
the rains to end show me your rainbow
I have burned for
night to fall to meet you in my dreams
I have longed for
your window for a glimpse of you
I have been thirsty for
you to come and quench my thirst
I have waited for
you at your doorstep since eternity

Our Time

There are days that are sunnier,
and gardens are full of blossom
riot of color may erupts around
and the air will be all fragrant
yet all this pales when you and I
meet to have a time that is ours

In this place or in distant land
in sad autumn when leaves pale
or on rusted paths they crumble
even in snow covered white winters
or a hot barren sandy dune desert
our time is still as beautiful as ever

In tender arms of yours and mine
or just as close as the worldly sight
or across cities that we may live
or even if it is across rivers, borders
continents and numerous oceans
me and you, our time still beautiful

In caring of your curled locks
or under the scorching hot sun
In clouds fluttering as white flag
moving away waving good bye
then coming back down as rain
our time will always be beautiful

no longer me

You come in life and
wave me good bye
as a gust of winds
hits my face and
moves on far away
without any trace
yet I keep with me
your memories and
that gentle little touch
made in that instant
that you were here
and each memory
goes in me like
a roaring river
that passes through
my heart to beat
against the rocks
only to move on
and for next wave
to again rise, slam
splash there to die
but even if I were to live
you won't be alive
for you would have
then died here now
from my heart and
even though you
will live on this earth
you would then
no longer be in here
with my aching heart
that has longed for you
and even though I  live
am no longer me
am no longer alive

I Love this air

I seek you in each moment
in each gust of wind here
in each sunrise of the day
I seek you in myself too
yet I love all that exists
I love all that is you, yours
I love this air, this breeze
it carries your fragrance
from you to me far away
I love these rare rainbows
for they borrow your colors
to splash them across horizon
I love these waves this sea
as it they have your essence
touching you in distant land
I love these forgotten promises
for they are the ones you made
and have your reasons in it
I love the silence that I have
cause it has your echo in it
it resonates from my ear to ear
I love this rain, as these clouds
passed over your house on way
they convey your well-being to me
I love my heart, my faint pulse
not for keeping me alive so far
but to remind me your presence

you and I

Love,
Don't despair
life hasn't stopped
the air still flows
and we can see
each other
in this day
and through
the dark of night
holding hands
as if to go
forever like this
you and I

Beyond the
valleys of cold
and hills of sorrow
in the meandering
rivers of tears
I would still
seek you
now and
from here on
always,
to be there 
you and I

Love,
we have this air
always
this spring will
come back, always
these flowers
will grow again
and so would
this river which
dries in each
hot summer
do not despair
we will hold hands
you and I

हाल-ए-दिल

न हाल-ए-दिल बयां कर पाए ,
न हम उन्हे कभी भुला ही पाए

है ये केसी मेरे दिल की हसरत
बस एक झलक में बहल जाए

पर है अब ये कैसा खेल उनका
इधर से गुज़रे पर सामने न आए

ये भी शायद एक अदा है उनकी
ज़रा-ज़रा सताए, प्यास बड़ाए

न बोलूं तो इशारों से उकसाए
जो बोल दूँ तो वो युँ इतराए

है कैसी अब ये बेरूखी उसकी
देख कर भी अनदेखा कर जाए

मैं पुकारूँ फिर भी वो ना आए
मत पुछ के हम केसे जी पाए 

beyond me

I saw the colors of spring
sky's canvas at dawn dusk
yet its your colors that I seek
reason for this is beyond me

I inhaled fragrance of spring
and saw the magic of autumn
my heart still seeks to be you
reason for this is beyond me

I see the sun and the moon
and I see the stars abound
yet I seek shade of  your hair
reason for this is beyond me

A tulip face once came to me
so did a cypress form once
yet its your presence I search
reason for this is beyond me

I have traveled far and wide
covering land and oceans
yet I just seek your adobe
reason for this is beyond me

I met Krishna (god) on the way,
I saw a heavenly nymph
none I recollect except you
reason for this is beyond me

Love Sonnet

Love, I searched for you

in morning rays of sun

only to realize that light

was glow of your face

that sun borrowed for 

the day for it to shine

And when this borrowing

ended, it gave way to night

Love, then I looked towards

moon in your anticipation

only to find that poor moon

was just reflecting you

but muddled with it's own

cracks and scars it Has carried

with it from days it has

been forced to be away

From you, your love and those 

nights became dark moonless

Love, I seek you in those 

dark gory, moonless nights 

in the light of infinite stars

Only to find some measures

Of your feet on shifting sands

whose reflection became 

These numerous stars in sky

Perched in your hairs darkness

Love, I seek you in this air

That fills my lungs and soul

only then to realize that

My soul is not within me

it lives in you, hoping to

be there now and forever

as one soul across these
two bodies that we live in