As the day breaks

As the day breaks
and new dawn arrives
along chirping of birds
under the cover of clouds
I wait for the rain
whole day of the monsoon
but get just passing winds
as i step out in the dusk
am treated with picturesque
scene, a colorful painting
a riot of colors scattered
all above me in sky
by these very clouds
which were to rain
may be they waited
to show this sight to us
and then decide to fall
on this thirsty earth
release earthly fragrance
when first drop touches
the warmth of earth
embracing each other
like long lost love
drop is no longer a drop
its now the earth that was
and thirsty for the next
drop by drop it pours
filling earth and showing
its own existance with
so many others like it
and also its eternal love
for this very earth
that inspite of teasing
it has to fall on it
and get into its embrace
all over again and again

Moon comes to my window

Moon comes to my window each night
and I just whisper your name to moon
and it smiles at me and nods in agreement
to convey my message when it sees you

Moon never stays back with me for night
and I don't have to use any words with moon
with no language we still have an agreement
but am not sure how those words reach you

Moon never tells me if it could see my love
if the window of love was open for it to pass
the message I gave from my heart to yours
and hence at times I repeat the same for you

Once I opened my door and invited moon in
still same moon light came as through window
it kept smiling at me, looking at my helplessness
you are in distant land and that am far from you

Moon and I talk without a common language
love, love has no language except that of love
and  we struggle with words when we have
our breaths, heart beats and language of soul

long road to travel

i have a long road to travel
but without you this journey is meaningless
have heard about sight it offers
but without you all those are just colorless

come with me, color lives
in colors you like, you can dye them
the hues each sees are different
just pick your leaves and color them


hues vary in leaves with season
but some seasons are without leaves
but when am with you,
there is love, life and varied hue's leaves

We can stand leafless season
holding each-others hand in that season
me seeing life through your eyes
and seeing colors everywhere for one reason

you are the dyer, the color master
no color exits without your permission
come color my soul such that
color does not leave without your permission

When I am with you

When I am with you,
the world itself begins to fade
What I am not with you
everything else begins to fade

my life was all  but empty
then came life in human form, you
there is nothing in here
that makes me live except you

this distance is a killer
my soul just craves for you
you and I on same earth
yet so far-far away are you

I have always loved you
beyond worldly wrong and right
i have always held you
closer to heart than anything, tight

let not this distance
kill the love that exists between us
let not this time
create more distances between us

you live in every breath
i see you in heart every moment
when you will not be here
i will cease to exist in the moment

my beloved is far

my beloved is far-far away
in a distant land, across seas
how do i get to meet beloved
when all are putting barricades
in my efforts to reach love
its been months that I have
not had a look of my beloved
but there is no moment when
I have not thought about love
I may look alive and breathing
but my self, my soul is far away
wandering now in love's street

my soul is thirsty for a look
and my eyes its willing gate
but yet I cannot reach love
yet I cannot cross these seas
these imaginary boundaries
enforced by man on man
how do i touch love again
how i get that assuring hug
of life and love once again
when there is this distance

They say there is a direct
connect from heart to heart
but why then i cannot seek
my love, beloved from here
why does my love, beloved
and I have to suffer separation
and why we cannot even meet
when we both want to meet
O beloved, how to cross seas
when there is no boat around

Am in love with the sea

Am in love with the sea
and yet afraid to get wet
my love too is on the shore
barely wet, waiting for waves

Am in love with the sea
and stand at the shore
waiting for that one wave
that carries me to you

Am in love with the sea
it has waves like your heart
waves, one after another
always trying to reach you

Am in love with the sea
it is like your pristine heart
with all the secret it holds
deep within its own dark

Am in love with the sea
for after infinite dives too
we touch only a fraction
of what beauty it beholds

Am in love with the sea
because it is similar to you
with pearls for any diver and
treasures in dark to explore

Autumn is still far

Love, Autumn is still a bit far
leaves are green from last spring
even though there are few clouds
today the sun shines on us bright
I need to see your smiling face
cause all life I know is in you
but you are sad and worried
and so is my life and breath

you worry about yellow leaves
which fell from trees last Autumn
but then came along spring
and branches are green again
let me take the crumpled leaves
and wash them in that cold river
to let the saddness drain down
and see you smiling once again

Love, let me walk with you
and together we will chip away
at all that is, that worries you
and see you, see us, smile again
Love, let me lay my head
on your lap when this is done
and caress my head again
Love, See Autumn is still far

my eyes are wanting

my eyes are wanting to see you
they wait holding their breaths
not knowing from where and when
you will walk across the ocean here
Countries, borders and a long flight
all separates us across this distance
and I still hear your voice through
but you are not here in my solitude
you are so far that sight does not go
in spite of this we love each other

Love, I don't know how to say this
but there is no moment am alive
when you are not here in heart
look at yourself through my eyes
and let me look at your eyes
to see brightest stars that exits
 feel the deepest oceans beckon
for there is no one except you
that stirs my soul to be what it is

 I can survive, without food, air
but how do I survive without soul
love you have my soul with you
and that is why am still alive here
this night has been dark and long
and only you bring dawn to me
am waiting for you to deliver
the golden cup of dawn's sun
and when this day will end
we die with it for another day
and then again your soul delivers
that golden cup of dawn to me

This night is without you and my,
solitude is incomplete without you
the biggest stars cannot glitter like
your eyes shine, brightest of all
but then this night is sad, dark
the silver shine of moon is missing
love, your face, your glow missing
your presence, your being  needed
my heart, waits for you, your presence
to bring the silver bowl to brighten
flaky tender night with breaking stars
and an incomplete solitude of mine
but know even if you are not here
my heart, my beats they all love you

my heart breaks

my heart breaks at each instance
when it knows its not with you
my heart breaks at each moment
when a tear falls from your eyes

my heart breaks when I know
you are haunted by nightmares
and I look up-to the stars at night
helplessly hoping I was there

my love, am not there with you
and its my shame that I still live
when you suffer all this pain
all alone there, braving the odds

I have never known love to be
anything but you, your essence
and today that you and essence
is far needing me and am here

I have not known another way
but one that you showed me
to love and be there besides
when  needed unconditionally

born of an egg

born of an egg, eating leaves

the creepy insect transforms

one day with colored wings

into a butterfly to fly away

onto flowers with varied hues
jumping from one to another
hearing whispers on approach
breaking hearts as it goes

born of a small green nip
the hard bud transforms
one day with colored petals
into a blosoming flower
it cannot leave the stem
for it may not survive
holding onto the thorn
for it to protect life

butterfly I cannot touch
for it colors may go away
butterfly I cannot hold
its wings may breakaway
flowers I cannot pluck
the butterfly may go away
thorns too I cannot cut
the flowers may not stay

what love between the two
each needs the other
to live, survive and grow
and pass life along
both live different lives
yet both are dependent
the butterfly on flower
and flower on the fly

Each Morning, Each Night

Each night, I look up to the moon
hold you and kiss you good night
with all the stars in attendance
jealous waiting with flickering sight
for me to let go and light the sky

Each morning, i long to see your face
and kiss your forehead each morning
holding the golden cup of dawn's sun
long enough to have your cheeks red
and letting you go for world to brighten

in between this day and this night
I hold you each moment of time
as a thirsty traveler holding on
to the last drop of water he has
till the oasis of evening, to replenish

Insomnia

Your thoughts keep me up all night
and my insomnia has no other cure
my soul is gone with you, in you, yet
my thirst to be with you is not quenched

for how shall I leave my wants, desire
which my sole soul has craved forever
from the time of my dawn on this earth
it has looked for you in all it sees, hears

from time even before this lifetime
my soul has been waiting for you
waiting for you to hold me in your arms
and tell me that this wait is all over

yet you seem to be away from me
blissfully unaware you carry my soul
and crave for being with you again
I crave to be you beloved , forever

now, I live with wounds that have 
torn my chest apart exposing heart
and this heart has you in it, now
devoid of darkness in your light

no one will ever rule this heart
no one will ever occupy this place
no one else will cure this insomnia
save you, my soul, my beloved

the shell is broken

having had a cocoon
I have lived happily
unaware of dark
unaware of light
but a look from you
a word of yours
and my cocoon gone
the shell is broken
heart is wounded
and it sees the light
realizes whats dark
with every wound
and every crack
enters the light
your light love, and
it brightens me up
through the cracks
it lights me up

i can no longer heal
or cover these cracks
for they brightened me
and I long to be again
in your sight, in light
under the cover of
your long tresses
and bosom of heart
that ponders in me
and my soul is gone
with the first wound
with you, forever
yet i am alive, still
with my soul in you
hoping to hold
your light deep in
my heart pondering

Do not Hold

Do not hold me,
for am broken
deep in tatters
with pieces put
in place to show
am still alive

Do not kick me
though I may
appear strong
am glue-less
wall of bricks
just holding on

Do not blow
this wind on me
for I may not
sustain it's gust
and be flown
far far away

I see a wind
coming with gust
let me hide
behind crumbling
walls and tatters
for I may survive

Ruins is all
I have, so
do not search
for any treasures
as am without any,
deep, hollow, empty

what joy

what joy, love what joy
me and you seeking
the same moon, stars
and same radiant love

lets sit here tonight
looking at each other
unaware, whats around
lets get drunk now

my gobblet of wine
is broken, in pieces
but I know I have you
to make me drunk

i hold your face close
lost deep in your eyes
the more I seek you
more am lost in ecstasy

you come close and
touch my lips with yours
am still I dont breathe
i dont live any more

hold me while i walk
for my feet dont know
which way to go ahead
for i have tasted divine bliss

Am no longer what I was
am no longer alive as one
am lost in you, lost forever
I am you, now, forever

spring is far

I remember the last winter, autumn, summer
am baked in this heat, this year yet again
with no sign of spring or memories of it
love, spring is far, and I long for it again

you are not here and the spring is still far
it does not matter if I see flowers bloom
but my voice cannot reach you in this time
it kills me and all buds of heart that bloom

my love for you has not ended, it cannot
for its not an isolated lake nor a dried river
it is a sea that keeps knocking the shore
one wave after another, as a pearl giver

Don't stand at the shore choosing the sight
come dance with me, on each wave's beat
Don't choose my waves, for they don't live
but pick up pearls that wash to your feet

autumn is near again and my lives withering
with it shaking a barren branch, of memories
one on which we both sat and talked years
it may not survive the storm, leaving memories

even if you hold me, the branch will not survive
you gone, it lost its flower, only thorn remained
no one looks at the thorn, but the rose it holds
without love, thorn died, memories remained

I am sad tonight

I am sad tonight, but i could not cry
for your love that existed in me,
in my heart, deep within, now and forever
could not be wasted in those tears

yes, you are not next to me, now
and that pains my heart, my being
but then I still hold you in me
for you always have been there
since the beginning of mine
since am on this earth

yet again the leaves are falling
and path is littered with withered leaves
but i tread on, holding you in heart
after you are long gone, far distant
where my sight does not reach
but this wind, this moon and stars
are there too with you each night
passing my love each moment
long after you are gone,

I stand across the seas
looking past the distant horizon
waiting for you to reappear
walking towards me on that ocean
for that one lingering kiss
on my cold half open mouth
and closing my eyes last time
with your hands, soft, tender
so that I carry these feelings
with me when I go away

Silence

If only my silence could Speak,
Love, I could describe you
or let you describe yourself
if only you are willing to talk
about beauty that you possess
which is incomparable to
any thing else on this earth
incomparable in this universe

If only i could describe a strand
of your hair, with any word
i would know enough language
to communicate anything here
but my silence speaks loud
what words cannot communicate
for words are just not enough
to describe you, love, in any form

If only I knew how to bound
you in words of any kind
if only I could remain in senses
love, after seeing you, perfection
that i could speak a thing, love
which is comprehensible
to you , all here, who claim
to be sane after seeing you

the only thing i could do is
to hold each strand of your hair
and write proses about each
one after another, endlessly
to hold your face with hands
and let air pass from lips to lips
and let my arms be around you
in an embrace that no one breaks

Am on a journey

Am on a journey,
from my heart to yours
cherishing moments,
memories of our time
and picking the moments of
togetherness, spent laughing
talking about mundane
and those seconds of silence
looking at your face, love
as if the world began there
as if the world would end there
when am lost in your eyes

Its your eyes, your face
I need see each morning
holding you in my arms
each dawn of my life
these disheveled hairs
and your half open eyes
and smile on your face
is all that matters that day
There is no dream now
that i can see or sleep for
you being next to me, here
is better than all dreams, ever

This place, this world
Love, they no longer matter
they bring no joy, no grief
no feeling, no attachment
for all that I see and wish
I found it in you, your heart
there is no wish, no desire
that can surpass this feeling
The time I spent with you
is what I carry with me
everywhere, deep in my heart
living each moment through it

I dont know why

I dont know why, and from where
these feelings comes to me suddenly
that I love you, even more than I did
when you are far, not mine anymore

I dont know why, I still live here
just with thoughts of yours, love
with these emotions full of love
when am nothing but sad without

I dont know why, I still feel same you
have your essence, your persona felt
even with the distance that separates
when I know you will never be here

I dont know why, I wait here for you
caring less that you come with one
or you come along a sea of men
when I know thats not what I can see

I dont know why, I look at the moon
each night, blowing my kisses through it
hoping they reach you at crest of its night
when I know you are in someones arms

I dont know why, sitting at this shore
I imagine its you, right here teasing me
as daughter of this sea, splashing waves
caressing feet, pulling sand underneath

I dont know why, am still looking across
this shore and the ocean beyond this
hoping that you will walk over horizon
when I know  you are  moving away