your absence

I have spent the night
without any sleep,
in my eyes
remembering you
while trying to forget
you and our love

We met for days
and then I knew
I love you
in that very instant
and now we are
away from each other
for so long and
yet forgetting you
is so difficult

I am afraid to dream
as your absence
is present in
my every dream
tearing me apart
at each moment
I dream without
your love's existence

without your presence
my body may be alive
but my soul abandons it
in its search for you
in this existance
and in many more
lives yet to come

My eyes look for you
where are you, they ask
why do you need a lifetime
or even more than that
to come back and
be besides my darkness
and you keep giving
this endless pain to me

you absence goes through me
piercing my heart every moment
for me to feel renewed agony
in every breath, every beat
of my torn pierced heart
leaving me with wounds
which will never heal

I knew nothing of colors
and yet I loved your glow
and in your absence
all my colors are gone
replaced with one color
the color of your absence
and all canvases I have
are painted with it

love, your absence makes
me die again each minute
waiting for you to come
and hold me again once
for that one last kiss
whose essence i carry
with me to my death
and let it linger on my soul
long after my body is gone

love let me die then
on your last kiss
so that there is nothing else
that replaces its feeling
on my soul and body
for it to remain forever
immortal in my death
on my half open mouth
and your hands on my eyes
closing them one last time