Am tired

Am tired of being strong
and tired of walking sraight
looking people in the eye
and telling them all is fine

Am tired of my smiling face
when I want to break down
and cry where no one sees
or feels wounds of heart

These wounds are deep
am tired of nursing them
and the pain they bring
is always unbearable

they carry with them
a fading image of yours
which still keeps me alive
to suffer without you

Love, do not come near
and touch my wounds
they will bleed again and
give more pain to me

Am tired love, of my being
which exists without you
this existance that is devoid
of your presence, your being

Am tired love to be walking
around in the world here
proving my existence till
the last breath, staying alive

Why cannot I lie down here
where you walked the shore
with me and holding my hand
and be still here till the end

Am tired of not being wit you
and always looking at that
fading memories of yours
that live in me for ever