I don't see you

I don't see you anymore
in my dreams at night
for the night like it stars
twinkles in my eyes with
memories of our time together
yet does not give me moments
in which my eyes close and
I go into a state of dreams
where I am in in yours
and you are in my dreams
like this river that is in sea
and no one can make out
where the river did end
and where the sea took over

My nights are devoid of sleep
that used to be in my eyes
ever since you are gone,
far away in a distant land
and I search like a Bedouin
searching for a little oasis
in the big dry and empty desert
where thirst is quenched
and in whose fire and water
bread he eats is baked
just like the flare the comes
as light reflected by your skin

my dawns are without the breeze
that flows each morning here
on this earth as it wakes up
fresh like a wave of sea
lashing on the shore here
one after another dragging
these houses made in sand
along with it in its depth
never to be seen, here ever
but to let us have more of
this sand and gravel here
to keep building more homes
and decorate them with love

my days are dark and gloomy
with no sun to shine here
without your presence in
my afternoons which are dark
like dense black clouds
which cover the sun high
but are never low enough
either to merge with the cloud
or to have droplets falls
that can reach this thirst earth

then I waited for monsoon
to send me winds filled
with water to breathe
and fragrance to live for
just like a small fresh bud
of the spring that is about
to bloom after tough winter
bringing with it all its
colors and fragrance
to lighten up my world

I used to also wait for you
each hour of the day
at the same place we met
day after day, week after week
like the hands of the clock
which visit the same spot twice
in the day, once in light
and other again in dark
in hope that if someone is
shy of the light and world
that one can appear in dark

I used to see you with eyes
and in my dreams always
and when I could not open
nor I could sleep at night
I had you always with me
deep in my heart captured
there with my soul as companion
but still as a deer I searched
for you like my musk
which is within me
and I seek the world for you
love, how else do i describe
this unending love for you
for even when you are far
I see you in my heart always