how many more

How many more suns
how many more moons
how many moonless nights
being away from you
how many more breaths
how many more love

I open door to my
house each morning
I switch off lights
of house each night
to see your absence from
dawn to dusk to dawn

Love, I ask you
to hold me in this
dark and blinding light
through the dark alleys
full of indifference
into you, into love

what flows in my veins
is your remembrance
roaring like raging river
through numerous rapids
flow bashing on heart
leaving sand, memories

I try to set sail on a boat
of yours, but the memories
lash against the mast
leaving it in taters
Yet again I try to go
and yet again am beaten