just when

Just when I took a step
to move closer to you
I realize i have just passed
the point where you were
to sudden trace my feet
and realize that all along
I have been running
this far in a circle and
am still stuck at the place
where I had once begun

Just when I pick a brush
and dip it into a color
i realize that the color
I have is no different
than the color on wall
that I have been painting
the wall over and over again
in the same color without
every creating a picture
except last few strokes
of brush that remain visible

Just when I feel this breeze
of a joyous spring unfold
I open my eyes to see
withered leaves around me
realize that spring is still far
I have been in an autumn
imagining the long winter
is gone to let sun shine
once again on our garden
and make this garden bloom
with me and you in it
amongst the fragrance
of these colored flowers